I Have Insomnia.
I’m not complaining about it here though, I am writing about it now because it is an obstacle to be faced. I am writing about it now to take away its power. I will refuse to be sad, sorry or give in to a “good” excuse.
I am done giving myself excuses, I am done giving myself a list of reasons to be docile and instead I want to give myself reason to move forward.
In a few short hours that alarm will go off, that alarm will probably piss me off. I might be irritated, I might take five minutes to long to get out of that bed but damn it I WILL GET UP!
This is the extent of my self-pity tomorrow, I am totally ready to get up in the morning and be pissed off for a moment, but there is where it ends, that is all you’re getting out of me tonight insomnia.
This is a new era for me, a walk forward instead of dwelling… recognizing my problems, acknowledging them, but also telling them that they will have less impact on me in the future.
This won’t keep me in bed tomorrow, not tomorrow or ever again.