Not Tonight Satan, NAWT TTAHNIGHT

I Have Insomnia.

I’m not complaining about it here though, I am writing about it now because it is an obstacle to be faced.  I am writing about it now to take away its power. I will refuse to be sad, sorry or give in to a “good” excuse.

I am done giving myself excuses, I am done giving myself a list of reasons to be docile and instead I want to give myself reason to move forward.

In a few short hours that alarm will go off, that alarm will probably piss me off. I might be irritated, I might take five minutes to long to get out of that bed but damn it I WILL GET UP!

This is the extent of my self-pity tomorrow, I am totally ready to get up in the morning and be pissed off for a moment, but there is where it ends, that is all you’re getting out of me tonight insomnia. 

This is a new era for me, a walk forward instead of dwelling… recognizing my problems, acknowledging them, but also telling them that they will have less impact on me in the future.

​This won’t keep me in bed tomorrow, not tomorrow or ever again.

-Cubcake

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